She drove up, with the other 3 people that took her to lunch. They actually were driving her, to be more specific. I am not sure what happened in the car, what was said, what happened at lunch, what has happened through out the whole thing. I haven't been here long enough, I am not sure the right way to cope/deal with this. I assume she was saying her goodbyes, that she was holding her baby. That she kissed him and loved him, the way a only mother knows how. This couple cares for her, I know. But its hard because I almost think of them as "the couple." Even though its best for everyone involved. Though the hardest thing that She will ever have to do. I watched her through the kitchen blinds, I had looked up while putting away dishes, curious to see who had parked out front. And saw this all unfold, not intentionally. She was bravely walking away from the car, after hugging the couple. There were tears in her eyes, and I can only imagine the torment of leaving her child in the car. But it wasn't hers anymore? I heard the door opening. I watched the couple standing in our front yard, the husband came and held the wife supportively. She looked at him, so sad, for the mom entering our house. She put her hand on her heart and sighed, and leaned on his shoulder. He drew her closer and they embraced sideways, then turned around to get back in the car, since she had already entered house and could turn around to see them like that. They probably don't know that I saw everything. It was a hard thing to observe on a weekday afternoon. She came into the kitchen area, put her leftovers in the fridge, half smiling at all of us, but clearly trying to just walk through without anyone saying anything. If she stopped to conversate, she might burst. She went to the bathroom fast. Came out later with more mascara streaks. Tear stained eyes. I can't imagine. What would it be like to carry for 9 months +, and then come home with nothing but a scar on your stomach. And fall asleep feeling relieved, lonely, and feeling like a mother, but not. I want to tell her she is the best mother in the world. She is brave, selfless, and still a mother. It is hard for her though to hear things like that right now...